I am an insecure person.
That’s a big confession.
Truthfully, in varying degrees, so are we all. If we were all secure we would not seek so many things to make us secure.
Obviously the first thing that comes to mind is money. Why do we think we need so much money? “Its to be secure.” How secure do we need to be? When is it enough money?
You say, “No, you get me all wrong. I don’t work just for money, I work because I love to work and need something to do.”
Well then, if you think you are secure, why not give ½ of what you now earn away?
“Oh no! I can’t do that, I need the money to…”
So there you have it, we are really insecure. It’s never enough. As my friend said to me some years back, having saved millions, “Just one more million.”
How much power does it take to feel secure? Do you ever have enough power to be fully secure? From famous power-hungry people like Stalin, Idi Amin, Adolf Hitler, Hugo Chavez, to the bossy manager in the office…men-and women- women crave power. Some become evil, some not so evil, but in most cases they use the power to protect their position. Most of them are insecure.
Funny, in most cases it was the people who put them in power- PEOPLE POWER- but then keeping the power become the goal. This is insecurity at it’s worst.
Our little ways are not much different, just not so blatant-self-protection and control. How we desperately want to control our circumstances and the people around us. If anything gets out of control, we are in a panic- showing our overwhelming insecurity.
What happens if someone criticizes you straight to your face? If you are hurt and angry, it’s insecurity.
How about when you hear or you think you heard what someone said about you? You desperately try to find out what they said. It’s really hard to let a rumor go. Our insecurity rises to the surface.
The problem with insecurity is it prevents trust. The deeper your insecurity, the more shallow your relationships. Our insecurity makes it difficult to listen to others; we cannot afford to be wrong or less than the best. I’ve seen organizations and churches where everyone feared the boss to the place where no one would tell him the truth.
Some years ago I heard Larry Crabb say in a seminar that the premise of the Christian life is that “Jesus and only Jesus is all you need to be happy.” It sounds simple, yet Jesus promised you everything you need.
It’s just that we think we need something else. We need more.
Just a little experience and honesty from us will reveal that all the ‘stuff’ in life we pursue does not really make us happier, more secure or satisfied. Jesus received the worst of human treatment- yet He was unmoved by criticism, rejection and scorn. He wasn’t a robot- for He demonstrated a vast spectrum of emotions including sorrow and anger- but He was never insecure.
It is my conclusion that real security is parallel to the depth to which we have allowed Jesus into our lives. A life fully committed to Jesus is real security. You see, nothing is going to happen to me or you today that Jesus will not be there.
Some time ago it became so real to me in the middle of a day where most things had gone wrong, that the Holy Spirit knew that this day would be like that. He was prepared for it and I did not need to be. He would take me through.
Most of us are fixers. We want to get things done, finished and over with. That does not work with relationships. It’s not like, “meet Jesus and it’s fixed.” It’s like “meet Jesus and through a living relationship with him, He fixes and at times re-fixes things.” There is no other way to ever be secure.
There is an answer for our insecurity. You can’t fix yourself, or the world, or all your relationships, but HE can. He is our security.